I thought I was finally past the crying, but right now I have tears pouring down my cheeks. It not just missing Sonya it is also the fear I am going to lose Clara from my life too or that I will not be able to protect her.

I don’t even know if Clara wants me in her life. I just know I love her like she is my own daughter and I need to be her advocate and protector. I could not protect her mom I need to protect Clara.