The last few days I have had almost no sleep because I am having major anxiety issues. What makes it worse is that I no longer have anyone in my life to talk to about things and that the anxiety I am currently experiencing is because the person I used to talk to is no longer with us. My head is going to explode.
Really Stressed
Drone Flight: Sunset May 29th, 2023
I have not been able to do much flying this year with everything going on, but the last few days we have had some incredible sunsets, so I finally took a few minutes to put my DJI Mini 3 Pro up in the area. Below are some of the photos.
Another Shitty Night
I am extremely tired this morning and a bit emotional. Between pain in my right knee and a bit of stress I hardly slept last night and then while standing on my front porch this morning I just started to tear up. However, I am not going to let things get me down today. I have a lot of cleaning and preparing for Clara’s Sweet 16 Birthday on Saturday.
I do get to see Clara tonight, which I am really looking forward to.
Happy Mother’s Day (maybe?)
Feeling a lot better emotionally
Sorry, I have no idea why I recorded this vertically.
I love you Sonya
Update: I knew today was going to be difficult, but it was a lot more difficult than I thought. Most of the day was more anxiety than depression or sadness, but since coming home from the service I have really been sad to the level of being numb. All I want to do is turn off the lights and climb in bed and cry.
Update
I have not posted in a while because I have been overwhelmed with everything that has happened this year. However, this is going to change. I need to gain better control of my life and this blog will help me focus.
Miss You Mom 💕
Thanks Jenny
Jenny sent me this the other day. I really did not think that there was a photo of Sonya, Clara, and I. Okay so it is not the best photo. It is from a few years ago and I was in the hospital after almost dying from a septic infection, but I am still glad Jenny found the photo. Thanks Jenny.

Thank you Ripley

I think someone is trying to distract us.