Another Shitty Night

I am extremely tired this morning and a bit emotional. Between pain in my right knee and a bit of stress I hardly slept last night and then while standing on my front porch this morning I just started to tear up. However, I am not going to let things get me down today. I have a lot of cleaning and preparing for Clara’s Sweet 16 Birthday on Saturday.

I do get to see Clara tonight, which I am really looking forward to.

I love you Sonya

Update: I knew today was going to be difficult, but it was a lot more difficult than I thought. Most of the day was more anxiety than depression or sadness, but since coming home from the service I have really been sad to the level of being numb. All I want to do is turn off the lights and climb in bed and cry.


I have not posted in a while because I have been overwhelmed with everything that has happened this year. However, this is going to change. I need to gain better control of my life and this blog will help me focus.

Thanks Jenny

Jenny sent me this the other day. I really did not think that there was a photo of Sonya, Clara, and I. Okay so it is not the best photo. It is from a few years ago and I was in the hospital after almost dying from a septic infection, but I am still glad Jenny found the photo. Thanks Jenny.