Thursday, June 22, 2023

I am currently sitting in a parking lot with my dad waiting for Clara’s bus from her work to arrive. I have been doing really well emotionally the last week, but a few moments ago, I broke down again. I really miss Sonya. I love you, My Little Butterfly.

Another Sleepless Night

When I went to bed last night, I was sure that I would finally get some sleep, because a lot of the stress I have been under finally had some relief. Boy, was I mistaken. It took me hours to get to sleep and then I woke up at 3am and could not turn off my brain and get back to sleep. It was not one thing I was thinking about, but dozens of things.

I will try again tonight. Oddly I am expecting the anxiety will return at the end of the week even if just for a few days.

Really Stressed

The last few days I have had almost no sleep because I am having major anxiety issues. What makes it worse is that I no longer have anyone in my life to talk to about things and that the anxiety I am currently experiencing is because the person I used to talk to is no longer with us. My head is going to explode.

Another Shitty Night

I am extremely tired this morning and a bit emotional. Between pain in my right knee and a bit of stress I hardly slept last night and then while standing on my front porch this morning I just started to tear up. However, I am not going to let things get me down today. I have a lot of cleaning and preparing for Clara’s Sweet 16 Birthday on Saturday.

I do get to see Clara tonight, which I am really looking forward to.