We have now been trying for months now to get Sonya’s car from Orlando. This process has been a total nightmare. People who promised to help but just blew off appointments to pick up the keys from the Orlando Sharif evidence department, others canceled their trips. Every plan just keeps falling through. We have now reached […]

I am really missing Sonya today. This is the first time in 13 years I will not see her on my birthday.

I large piece of my heart is now in heaven. I really miss you, Sonya.

I have been really missing Sonya the last few days. I even broke down yesterday afternoon and cried for the first time in about a week. I think a lot of it has been that I have been really worried about Clara’s future. I have also been trying to arrange to have Sonya’s car shipped […]

Yesterday was a very emotional day. I had to take Clara to the doctor for the first time since her mom past. Having to update Clara files to list her mom as deceased and add Tonya and I on as her guardians hit Clara extremely hard. I knew I was going to need to make […]

I don’t know why, but I have been waking up at 3 A.M. on the dot almost every night and I can’t figure this out why. On some nights I can get back to sleep normally after an hour or two, on other nights like last night I can’t. In fact, last night I had […]

I thought I was finally past the crying, but right now I have tears pouring down my cheeks. It not just missing Sonya it is also the fear I am going to lose Clara from my life too or that I will not be able to protect her. I don’t even know if Clara wants […]

I just realized there are no photos of Sonya, Clara, and I. I really miss you My Little Butterfly.

I just got home from the funeral, and I really don’t have the ability to write anything right now. I will just say that I was amazed by the number of people who came and that this was the worst night of my life. I love you My Little Butterfly and I know you know […]