It is the 4th of July 2023, Independence Day, normally one of my favorite holidays. However, it is also six months, 181 days since Sonya died.
Enjoying the fresh air
Rain has finally stopped, we’ll for now anyway, so Ripley and I are taking a moment to enjoy the fresh air. Looking at the sky, though, I don’t think we are done with the rain.
Weekly Update – June 23, 2023
Thursday, June 22, 2023
I am currently sitting in a parking lot with my dad waiting for Clara’s bus from her work to arrive. I have been doing really well emotionally the last week, but a few moments ago, I broke down again. I really miss Sonya. I love you, My Little Butterfly.
Temporary custody of the minor is granted to …..
Sorry the video comes to such an abruptly end. My dad opened the door to the van, which startled me a little, and I bumped the stop button. I have tried all day to re-record the video or record a second part, but I decided I had said almost everything I was ready to say on video at this time.
Another Sleepless Night
When I went to bed last night, I was sure that I would finally get some sleep, because a lot of the stress I have been under finally had some relief. Boy, was I mistaken. It took me hours to get to sleep and then I woke up at 3am and could not turn off my brain and get back to sleep. It was not one thing I was thinking about, but dozens of things.
I will try again tonight. Oddly I am expecting the anxiety will return at the end of the week even if just for a few days.
You have been served
This is going to be a very anxious week, very!
152 Days
Really Stressed
The last few days I have had almost no sleep because I am having major anxiety issues. What makes it worse is that I no longer have anyone in my life to talk to about things and that the anxiety I am currently experiencing is because the person I used to talk to is no longer with us. My head is going to explode.